simply uninterested.

currently i am fed up. checked out. and i do not care.
what im told is important, i can not figure out why.
i take that back. i know why. but for me personally.
i can not find it in myself to put in the time and effort.

not change the subject to art. something i am passionate
about. and i will spend a couple hours in the thought process
before i even start a project or an assignment.
why isn't our education geared towards setting us up to succeed.
why are we not able to change and switch assignments into
something we can succeed at.

how could it be possible, that we all end up
in the same colleges. yet i am taking harder
more demanding versions of classes.
and others are sliding by without lifting a finger.

how can that possibly measure out
to where we are put into the same group
of people who are considered for the same
schools.

the way things are ran. and messed up.
simply and utterly messed up.
and until it is fixed.
there will be people like me.
struggling and stressing because i simply
can not care enough to succeed. to pass with
flying colors. how is it possible that i go through
a whole year of school. and i can not tell you
one solid thing i have learned that i will be
able to refer back to. simply because of the
way the class is structured. is that the kind of
education i am paying for. one that the only results
of what i learned are letters aligned on a fancy sheet of paper.
letters that do not tell me what i have learned.
but how well i can cram information, and spit it back out.
only to be relieved when it is over, and to simply
flush out that garbage i just stuffed inside.

this can not be the way education. the way school
was intended to be.
the only good thing about this nonsense. is that it
leads to these thoughts that i am currently writing.

it leads me to thinking about the more important.
except my more important is merely irrelevant....