fill me up, pour me out.

i dont like this feeling
i dont like it at all
its like im on the verge of tears. forever.
im sad. and i long for you.
and i know its only been four days. but to be honest
its feeling like a lifetime.
im tired. and exhausted.
and im gasping for this work to end.
i piled it on. but i need the pay.

thats sad. this situation is sad.
i wanted to turn in my english assignment with incorrect grammar,
incorrect punctuation. no capitalization.
just as if i was writing here. i wanted to say,
this is a journal assignment, an assignment you said we could be honest with.
i wanted to tell her that this is my form of honesty.
vulnerability. maybe. in a sense its me.
focusing my attention, my thoughts, on what i feel is important.
my words. not my writing skills.

anyway. i miss you.
and i miss you. thats weird.
i dont know how to describe it.

pray for me. please.
could i borrow your lighter please? im having trouble with mine......