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im going to share tears now.

you dont deserve the time i am going to give you.
you dont even come close.


and for you. i literally hope you die.
because that is what you deserve.
you deserve nothing.
not even a pit of dirt to live in.

that is exactly what kind of person you are.
blindsided. tunnel vision.
its you and only you.

i hope your life ends up that way.
alone. desperate. hurt. betrayed.
depressed. empty. naked.
i hope it ends up being you. and no one else.
i would love the day to come.
where no one simply cares about you.


i wanted to apologize.
but i dont need to be sorry for what i can not handle.
for what i feel.
i just cant.

i want to say it so bad.
but i can no longer live as this person i am.
i can no longer continue to love unconditionally.
some conditions are too much to keep loving through.

youve proven that correct. its still unconditional.

i know what its like to love unconditionally.
i know what its like to love someone so incredibly much,
that you would do anything for them.

and i know what its like to lose everything you've loved.
i know what its like to lose you.

and it hurts like hell.
for that i am sorry.
i am sorry i loved you the way i did.
you stole it and ran.
never appreciated it wholly.
i dont think you ever saw.
your eyes were too cloudy.

so it is much easier to just walk away.

than to tie up loose ends.