empty form.

your words.
they are pulling at my heart.
every time.

what it means?
i dont know.
maybe it doesnt.

swimming. drowning.
only getting a second.
to come up for air.

if you get one at all.

situational depression.
im convinced.
all the cutouts.
all the shapes.
they fit.

i am in control.
i can turn it off.
as fast as it turns on.
sometimes the switch sticks.
longing for the dark.
longing for peace.
forced in the light.
forced in the depression.

so i take it in.
one spoonful at a time.
wash it down
with you.

wash it down with your happiness.
and hope to god
it keeps me content.
it keeps me satisfied. happy.
if only for a little while.


im sorry if i cant stop.
my life is a rollercoaster.
you willingly got on.

but you.
ill keep you safe.



just hold on tight...