early mornings

the late night turns into early morning.
i cannot find it in me to rest my head before two am.
i am not tired. not weary enough.

though i cannot find it in me to rise before 11 am

bad habits. mood rings.
i want to buy a ring.
you'll think its cool.
its all blue.

or indigo.

i feel alive and free.
whole and real.
beautiful and cared for.

fresh cut smells, two times.

thank you for your patience.

tears are falling in response to a yawn.



goodnight.

i guess.