hands.

they just fell out. the words.
fell faster than i could catch them.
by the time i had noticed. it was to late to justify.
to explain. so instead the words stopped.

i dont know what that meant.
or why it happened.
i dont know what it was or why it was.
i just, i dont know.

i dont mind. you know.
its okay. sometimes.

other times. they are held against you. the words.
they are used in times of desperation to call you out.
to put you in check. to make you feel some kind of remorse.

i hope that doesnt happen.
i dont think it will.

ive almost said it a couple times now.
i dont know if i actually think so.
whos to really know. really.
how can you?

how can you 'just know'
if you constantly question and second guess everything.

that. does not coincide.