addressed... or not.

i will apologize now for anything i may choose to do.
i really hope you wont hate me, think less of me, or be disappointed.
i dont know if this is necessary yet.. because im scared to death. of
what lingers here.. i cant figure out which scenario is more terrifing...
God, could you write a note, yanno excusing me from class, from work,
from the world, just for a little while. could you tell them its okay, ill be back,
that i just need some time with you if only for a small while. you can do that right?
i mean i dont see why not. please. and thank you...

bye.. such a small word, a short word,, i wonder who decided that.
anywho.. it was the last one i said.
my left eye keeps twitching.. it has been lately more than it ever has before..
before it was once in a blue moon... now... its all the time.. literally. almost all the time.
its weird.. and i wonder if you can tell. if anyone can tell. or why it wont stop...

back to what i intended... please dont hate me. please dont be angry or mad,
whatever happens happens.. and i promise to stay quiet, if it happens.

.....some good people i encountered. thanks friendly people.. who i may never see again in my life. i appreciate your kindess, your help, and your time. you were my miracle worker tonight. so thank you.