rollercoasters...

haven't wrote in some time..
my life it does that.. keeps changing.
ive never been on a real rollercoaster
but ive been living my life.. its pretty much the same,
ups and downs. twists and turns..
almost like when you know the person running the ride,
so they just let you keep riding, as long as you want..
its kinda like that.

dont worry, i got on all by myself,
and i double checked that i was secure.
its okay, yanno as long as the structure
itself decides not to collapse.

and so its ups and downs. i was made to be the one that
prefers the ups, and leaves the downs.
i am happy. really i am.
and i know what i said,
and i know that i am doing the opposite
i know.

but thats who i am,  the rider of the rollercoaster,
the one who cant stay away. i do what i feel,
and what i feel often changes.. so i often change.
or at least where im at in life does.

you know where to find me.. just circling round and round,
under this harness, existing in this seat, sharing breathing air
with those next to me.

its kinda funny, how i keep making comparisons to rollercoasters
and am speaking as if i am on one, the ones at amusement parks,
but in reference to my life.. such as sharing the breathing air.
i mean i only said that because i imagine you being close to people.
but really i have never been on one.. so really i could have completely
ruined what i had going..

but maybe not.