re-runs

i want to have a conversation with you.
this is a different you. one i have not wrote about.
at least not that i can recall.

but a conversation. discussing the past.
though i dont know if it is appropriate.
not that it is vulgar and inappropriate.
but the timing, or the context of the conversation
may be inappropriate for the time and place of your life.
but i wonder. what it would have been. if i had taken the
other route. changed my life then.
i still wonder. and probably always will.
because the conversation was probably the best conversation
ive ever had. communication is important. but i dont want
to make a fool. so i may keep my thoughts to me.
you are the only one who leaves me so puzzled.
normally i will say what i feel..well maybe not. but kind of.
so i do not know what it is i will or should do. but i want to have
this conversation. i want to know what it is you thought.
i want to know you. its been over two years. and it still
lingers in the back of my mind. i dont know if this means
anything. i dont know if it should. but i know i want to talk.

i dont want to be overly selfish....